There is so much things going through my mind right now and I don't want to think about it until I had finish this thing. But until now, I am not even close to finishing it and as time goes by, doing it won't be significant anymore.
I don't know why I would always place myself in these kind of situation and not hanging on and finally coming out losing.
I don't want it to end like this. I really want to do it but there are these barriers that I just can't seem to get through.
I don't know how to help myself and how others can.
All those confidence I had in myself in no matter what had happened is gone. I have nil confidence and self-esteem and I do not think I can accomplish anything in my life. I think I should just start working in some random supermarket as a cashier and never coming out in life, doing things that I had once dreamt of.
What really hits me is what my parents would do seeing me so and how disappointed they would be.
I am sorry.
Even though it is a new year it has no significance to me. It feels like I am in limbo and regardless of where I am, time does not seem to be running even though it is. I mean I AM getting older day by day.
help me get out of this pit. someone. please.